28 July 2008



Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye











i think i should learn how to forgive & forget more, precisely what i'm lacking of currently.
ugly heart's making me feel awful, awwww.


that's one major problem with human beings.
we tend to cling onto certain things and never want to let go.
letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.
stand up and walk out of our history. =)












Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.

Mother Teresa




11:19 pm








biology's all about memorising?!
i just can't seem to stuff all those long terms and sentences into my brain.
someone help me !!! T_T



i seems to be so stressed these two days that i do stupid things lor.
yesterday at work, we wore the new uniform.
the new cap is those baseball cap type.
at first, i started hitting shila, huimin, fidah's cap.
and we went around hitting people's cap.
this is so stupid, hahahas.



whereas, today the whole class was locked outside our classroom, as the auntie did not come and unlock our classroom, for some reason.
i was so bored and i asked jenny to play arm-wrestling with me.
initially, she was like "why the sudden interest of playing this game?"
other people started joining into the game and it became so funny.



a group of us played arm-wrestling at my table, during e-maths periods (it was free period as mrs yong was absent in school today)
and i was like, owned by people sia.
never mind, at least i won 4 or 5 people. HORRAY! =D
don't you think this game is so childish? but it's fun. ^_^
i was thrashed by weixiong very very very badly, INSULTING.
i shall win him one day, perhaps in my next life. -_-



i here by, declares that i shall lift anthony up with one of my fingers, and win weixiong in arm-wrestling SOME DAY. ^_^
i shall win these two Mr.Fits till they cries for mama. =P
when will that day ever come? muhahahhahas.



after school was a-maths remedial, it was only 30 minutes though.
i could not understand the question fully, need to find mr ho personally tommorow.
why am i so stupid, what's wrong with my genes? >_<



i shall not elaborate on the cca part as you guys will definitely doze off, reading that particular part.
after the super boring cca, was HOME! ^_^
sweety mummy cooked curry chicken, are you jealous? =P
anyway, we chatted about SHOW LUO ZHI XIANG, loves. =D
mummy was saying that SHOW'S so handsome & fillial.
wahahhas, i totally agrees. =)



later part in the night, mummy, jiejie and i went shopping.
guess where we went?
SHING SHIONG SUPERMARKET, hahas.
we bought junk foods and candies, oh my god. T_T
i think i'm gaining weight, arghhh.
i need to find a time to go gym someday. =)



STOP THE GAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
WANNA STOP THE MEMORISING GAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! =(
stupid biology, i hate you. >_<"


9:43 pm






27 July 2008












unlike past few years, we were only allowed to wear either ethnic costumes or FULL SCHOOL UNIFORM to school yesterday.
mr loh did allowed us to wear homeclothes when damai was under him lor, but now mr teo did not allow that.
he seems to be changing every single thing in damai.
he has to interfere with how we say the pledge or sing the school song.
kind of ridiculous?



anyway, around 1/4 of the school wore ethnic costumes to school yesterday.
i didn't wear lo, kind of regretted though. >_< size="3">PINK PINK PINK
. =D
i did not even realise it till i went to the counter and made payment.
the staff was looking at me in a "can you don't be that pink" look. =_=



anyway, after meeting up with huimin (old witch), we headed to a hawkers' centre and had our lunch there.
i was quite fed up by an uncle selling chicken rice.
i went forward to him and said, "uncle, can i have two packets of chicken rice?"
YOU KNOW WHAT?!
he totally ignored me sia. i don't know whether he's deaf, blind or something.
but this uncle is damn rude okay. he does not even have the basic courtesy to look at people when he or she is talking to him alright.



after our lunch, i went to buy my working shoes & school shoes.
i think my legs shrink lor.
i wears size 5's shoes usually. but even size 4 is a little too big for me currently. =X



work is the same, as usual. nothing much happened, actually. ^_^
a few customers are really inconsiderate.
they could be like keep changing their orders and hesitating on what to buy, when there is such a long quene behind them. -_-
hopefully they did notice the thousands of people quening behing them?
if you expect a thoughtful service, go to those expensive restaurant which charges 10% tax and 7% GST.
i think you would be happier, having your meal there. =)



chieh: i'm so sorry that i always can't find a time to go out with you.
you often ask me out, but i can't make it every single time luhs. =(
because of WORK, i often neglects you.
but i don't mean to do that, and don't want to.
you are making me so guilty can?!
never mind, the saturday after national day,
WE SHALL GO KTV. wohooooos! =D



i can't seem to control my feelings well now.
its not the same anymore.
although we tried to pretend that nothing has happened.
however, what has happened, has happened.
i can't turn back time and call a STOP to everything.
just have to carry on with life. =)



i can't help but to linger on your smile.

it's too powerful, and striking.
no matter how grouchy i was feeling,
that infectious smile of yours, never fails to make me, smile too.
again, i would be fool for a day.



p.s you will never win one's heart by underhand means.
check up on 'sincerity' in a dictationary.


12:40 am





24 July 2008


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do i look emo when i don't smile?
i guess not.
don't worry, it's just that i'm too tired or lazy to smile.
and i'm not trying to act emo luhs. =)



sharon told me that i looks so sad today and looks like i'm going to cry, any minute.
i was like surprised by her words.
BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL SAD AT ALL?!
i was only too exhausted, i guess.
seriously, i don't feel like i'm going to cry or something. -_-"
when is the last time i cried?



yes yes yes, today's lessons are damn boring, as usual.
it's always the same term used, BORING BORING BORINGGGGGGGGGGG.
can't lessons be more interesting or something? =x



physics: i was like keep finding faults at mr ben cheah. i just don't like this teacher, my personal opinion though. he just sucks don't rock in my eye. every part of him makes me feel irritated. it's that worse, ask hweechieh if you don't believe. =D



chemistry: i was like laughing at mrs lam as she really seems to be very 'ganchiong'. she sounds as if the world is going to tear apart if she don't finish teaching every thing by that period you know.and she speaks so quickly, 1000 words coming out of her mouth per minute. WOHOOS!



hey hey hey, why am i here insulting my subject teachers? =_=
i love them, LOVE LOVE LOVE. =)
perhaps thats a way of self-entertainment if you are really feeling so bored during lesson.
start making comments about the teacher with his or her mouth opening and closing like there's no tommorow.
maybe that will keep youself awake during lessons.
wow, what a great idea of mine huh. =D



after school, was history's study hour.
cherlynH and i were going to put our heavy bags in 1e2 classroom before we head to canteen and have our lunch.
but 1e2 students were not dismissed yet.
i think they were being punished or something. (unless their teacher have lessons with all the students standing up)



we waited for months to pass and the class was still not dismissed yet lah.
so we decided to go for our lunch, with our bags.
GUESS WHAT, the students were still standing after we came back from lunch.
should i praise the students for being able to stand for that long, or should i praise the teacher for being able to talk for that long? >_<



anway, we were allowed to enter the classroom at 2.05pm.
poor 1e2 students hahs.
i love study hour, because we are allowed to sit anywhere we like.
okay, it's not we are allowed.
it's WE ALLOWED OURSELVES to sit anywhere we like.
so we joined our tables together, hehs. =)



1 hour seems to pass very quickly.
maybe it's because we have gotten used to studying for long hours that one more hour does not seem much anymore.
after that, jolene and i met up and we went to ngee ann secondary for HCL.



as we arrived at 3.40pm+ (it was still early, lesson starts at 4.30pm)
so we decided to explore around tampine east CC.
it's kind of 'bo liao', wahhas.
guess what, the general office is located at the third office.
i thought normally, the office would be at the ground floor? -_-



anyway, we were actually looking for certain courses.
jolene wants to take up MUAY THAI, some kind of thai boxing or something.
she claims that she can protect me if she take up that course. =_=
and i wants to continue my ACOUSTIC GUITAR course lah.



currently, kind of regret for quitting my yamaha's guitar class.
but it's really too rush for me.
thursday, i have HCL till 6.30pm and the class starts at 7 or 7.30pm?
never mind, i shall continue my journey with guitar after my o' most probably.
schedule's too tight for me nowadays. >_<



anyway, before HCL lesson starts, jolene & i went to the basketball court in the tampine east CC.
she wanted to play BB but i don't feel like playing.
sometimes you just lose interest in every single thing.
so i just sat and watched jolene joined two boys playing BB.
i enjoys watching people playing BB rather than me myself playing lor.
i choose to be a spectator than a contestant? =)



i'm... ... so HAPpY, because i get to chat with norman kor through msn. =D
how many years has it been since we have a great chat lor.
okay, i feel so 'act cute' calling him kor now. -_-
but calling him norman makes me feel worse.
i still remember i always call him norman in conference with melvin & him.
i tells him everything which happens between melvin & me.
WAHAHS, he's my angel angel angel. ^_^


8:51 pm






23 July 2008


wahahs, i have no idea why i feel so happy today. =D
maybe because past few days i have been slacking and having fun. ^_^
okay! got to start my revision for the tests which are round the corner.
LETS PULL MY SOCKS HIGH UP!



i'm so depressed yesterday because of my S.S test sia.
it simply sucks?!
out of 2 questions, i only managed to complete 1 question in one period.
there are two questions, SBQ worths 7 marks, SEQ worths 13 marks.
know what, i only finished doing the SBQ, and ms hassen told us to stop writing.
so, even if i scores FULL marks for SBQ, i will still fail my test. T_T
right now, i should be praying that i can score well in that question. >_< style="font-weight: bold;">DAMN MISS HIM LAH.

iman's such a nice guy, you see.
i believe, if we do not have problem in communication, surely can have alot of things to talk about loh.
HAIIS, such a cute guy. =D



at night, don, weicheng and i went to play pool in hougang.
it's my first time playing POOL seh, can't believe it.
but had a great time and enjoyed myself. =P



this sunday will be wearing the new uniform.
oh my, i really look like some factory worker in that uniform can.
especially the colour! some kind of ugly yellow. =X



we are allowed to wear ethic costumes to school this upcoming friday.
i'm thinking of wearing malay costume! ^_^
we can hardly wear wear other clothes (except for school uniform) to school lor.
it's only once a year, we should more supportive of this event, hahhas. =D



just chatted with norman kor in msn.
so long didn't have a chat with him already.
we were like so damn formal and i feels weird calling him kor now. >_<" anyway, really missed the times when we played MAPLESTORY till morning! we were so crazy, hahas. =P alright, i shall end today's post here. photos are available in the previous post. =)








why can't i feel that i'm doing something for you.



10:16 pm









sending iman off at CHANGI AIRPORT.
















huggies.







delicious POPEYE. =D






POOL POOL POOL. ^_^















if you ever wonder what we do during free periods..






7:55 pm





21 July 2008


i need to have some fun too



today's such a boring yet fun day.
oh isn't that weird?
oh well, school real sucks.
i wonder when can i finish my studies and start having some fun. =)



after today's school was biology quiz in computer lab.
I SHOULD HAVE TRUSTED MYSELF INSTEAD OF OTHERS.
this inconfidence causes my 2 marks to say byebye.
it's alright, i still passed the quiz in overall, 9/15. =P




it was cca then.
both joycelyn & jolene did not go for art club.
jolene had something on, extra lesson or something.
while joycelyn did not go because.. it was RAINING.
such a 'convincible' reason. >_<>THEY WERE LATE, despite having long legs, wwahas. ^_^
and we walked to huimin's block void deck to study.
so shuting, huimin, don and weicheng and i studied for like 2 hours?
before we went for dinner in the nearby coffeeshop. ^_^



after dinner, we walked shuting home.
OH, HER HOUSE IS DAMN FAR FAR AWAY. =X
guess what, we had to walk back to huimin's house after then.
is this a walking marathon?! >_<>bedok town park! =D
i was shouting like some lunatics, you know.
weicheng kept asking me to lower my volume, as it was already 10pm plus.
& my screaMS will send attention to the neighbourhood.
but shouting out loud made me feel all so.. relaxed.
my burden seems to have lightened somewhat.
WAHAS, thank you don for pushing the swing real high up.
i was high high up, over the rainbow. =D



playing SWING is definitely a great way of destressing.
you can just shout and shout, putting all troubles aside, everything.
LET OUT ALL YOUR ANGER THERE. =)
shall play swing whenever i'm vexed, hehs. ^_^



i'm glad to have friends like don and weicheng around. =D
never fail to make me laugh.
i seems to have no 'image' infront of them, always screaming and laughing like some insane woman who just got dumped by boyfriends. o_O"



iman's leaving to indonesia tommorow. =(
don and i were thinking of skipping our afternoon classes tommorow, to go send him off, in the airport.
it will be the last time i'm seeing him, you see.
very last time in my life, i suppose. T_T
because he is not coming to singapore anymore.
so i'm pondering of skipping HCL class tommorow..
should i? >_<



alright alright alright, i shall stop here.
tommorow's test on CONFLICTS IN SRI LANKA.
this civil war isn't fully resolved till now, from what i have learnt.
anyway, JIAYOUSSSSS, LEEYING. =D


10:55 pm






16 July 2008


today's another life-less day in school.
sometimes, i do wonder why do my life have to be filled with studies every single day.
NO LIFE. >_<



anyway, after today's study hour, wenkai, jenny, cherlyn, qijia and i went to the art room to do some paintings. =D
and i got my uniform having some paint here and there... -_-"











i was supposed to mug for my chemistry test after reaching home?!
but yet this was what turned out to be.











CAM-WHORING at home





hmm, shouldn't i do some revision now?
BUT LOOKKKKKKKKKKKKK...















having sushi for dinner and family's CAM-WHORING, again!














but it's alright, i guess?!
i shall sacrifice little of my sleeping time and do some last-minute revision. =)
CHEMISTRY, here i comes! ^_^


9:52 pm





15 July 2008


SURVEY


1) Would you date someone shorter then you?
hey, i'm short enough, so i definitely won't find one who's shorter. =X


2) What's your plans for today?

getting some rest after doing this survey?


3) What would you do if your ex showed up at your door?

i do not have an ex-boyfriend. but if i have, i will ask him what the hell he want. =)


4) What are you watching?
i'm staring at the computer screen like some bloody idiots.


5) What do you think of this person you took this from?

she's a snowman, that's all.

6) Where was your default picture taken?
shh, it's taken in a school, hehs. ^_^


7) Who was your last text from?
i'm lazy to check lah, where did i place my handphone again?!


8) What's the most interesting thing that you did today?
most interesting thing.. playing in the store like some lunatics.


9) What's your favorite number?
2? it's my fav no. don't ask me the reason, i will kick your ass.


10) Who do u love the most?
my family and friends. =D


11. What is your current mood?
abit sleepy? i just wanna get onto my bed soon. =P


12. Last people you hung out with?
huimin, we went to study. where can you find such hardworking girls?! xD


13) What sports do you enjoy playing?
basketball, captainball, running


14) Who is the non-family member u trust the most?
a few good friends. loves them. yeah, you are one of them. =D


15) Whats your definition of life?

life is all about eating, sleeping and studying, what else?


16) What was the highlight of your week?
just get done with the chemistry test on thursday!


17) Would you date someone who was a bad kisser?

you can't judge a person by that. and will you kiss that person even before you dates him?


18) Who would be the first to know if you became pregnant?

duh, me myself. or the pregnancy tester?


19) Whats the last thing someone said to you?
byebye, HAHAHS. ^_^


20) Whose phone call do u always expect from?
i don't really expect calls from who.


21) Do you like cuddling?

perhaps, depends on who's that person is.


22) Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?
people who like to act around.


23) Anyone who seen u at ur worst and still said u're looking good?
i can't remember.


24) Would you ever cheat on your boyfriend/girlfriend?
i don't think so? nothing's impossible actually.


25) Would you ever date a friends ex?
it really depends on the situation.


26) Can you name 5 ppl in ur mind now?

myself, myself, myself, myself, sleeping.


27) What is the last thing you thought about?
when can i finish this damn survey and go to bed?


28) Anything special abt your birthday?
it falls on 17th feb. special enough.


29) How do you feel about yourself right now?
i sucks at maths, totally.


30) Do you miss anyone?
i miss hanging out with xianggggggggggggggggg.


31) What do you miss most about the past?

FrIeNz 4EvA, remember?! the rooftop, void deck and stuffs. >_<


32) What do u wanna do so badly now?
can i like go and sleep now? =)


11:22 pm









thank you guys, for the heart-warming messages.
i will have confidence in maths, AND MYSELF. xD
i shall prove that i do not suck that much in MATHS okay! =D
weicheng, weixiong, i shall bash the both of you up during maths test till you cries for mama and can't do the test, LOL!
nonono, no violence. =P



anyway, today's GCE O' LC paper was quite.. challenging, i should say.
it has been long since i have my LC paper.
the last LC paper i took was during PSLE?
so i felt kind of awkward doing my first and the last LC paper in my secondary life. =X



my mind drove off when the first passage was being read, on the radio.
and i was like.. "oh shit oh shit, i musn't do this!"
i just simply couldn't concentrate, you see.
but as time goes by, i was able to adapt to the atmosphere, and ANSWERED THE DAMN QUESTIONS. ^_^



after LC paper, i went to study with huimin in the store.
surprisingly, there were four managers on shift, it's quite rare sia.
vana, ronald, tom, judy. =)
guess what, mr richard lee came today. =P



huimin and i were discussing, maybe he's not that strict after all.
it's just that he has to act serious infront of other people.
i mean, who does not want to be able to joke around with people?
but due to his job, he has to do certain things which might cause others not to like him that much, and talk to him freely.
anyway, i can see he's a NICE person. =D



today's study was entertained by weicheng and siva, these two jokers.
they always cause me not to be able to focus on my work.
BECAUSE OF THEM, i could not have a proper revision. T_T




hmm, enough of the study part. =)
happy, ain't you?
during chinese lesson, i was chatting with jiawen on the phone for whole 2 periods.
apparently, weijie, wenkai and sharon do not know that LOW JIA WEN belongs to a girl's name.
even mr johnson tan don't believe that it's a female.



and they kept saying that i'm two-timing.
wait, did i say two-timing?
COME ON, i do not have a boyfriend currently.
SO, even if i was chatting with a boy on phone, what's wrong?!


p.s wenkai, there's nobody called marcus in my life. -_-"




10:52 pm






14 July 2008


what should i start from? -___-
okay, i just woke up from my 'long nap'
i was having a real bad headache.



i dreads mondays!
and i especially hates p.e lesson to be on mondays.
okay, that is all happening. =(
hmm, today's p.e lesson is on SOFTBALL.



mr chua took over mr cheow as he went for re-servist.
why is everybody going for RE-SERVIST?!
and he taught us briefly on how to play softball.
girls were all very confused by him, though.
anyway, we had a great time, running around? xD



past 3 days were like...
work is haunting my life.
i have been working at least 8 hours each day, for the past 3 days.
and it's really tiring can.
i didn't even have the damn time to do my revision.
there will be alot of tests in week 5 & 6.
saddening. =(



BUT i always have a great time working with friends like
huimin
jiawen
shila
weicheng
siva
don
anthony
shuting
huda
jessie
laura

as i have always said, friends are my motivation to work. =P



i seriously don't know to write, give me inspiration.
i shall post again when i have it. =D


7:57 pm






10 July 2008


DISAPPOINTMENT?!





what is affecting my peformance?
mr ho talked to me this morning, when i was heading to the hall for some briefing.
he asked me whether i really understand his lesson.
the thing is that, i do pay attention during his lesson. but i did real badly for my class quiz. 4/10, how bad? T_T

basically, i really do understand what he's teaching lah. the main reason must be lack of practices, and i forgot there was a class quiz on that day. =_=
mr ho said he's very disappointed in me as weaker students are beginning to catch up with his lessons now.
apparently, i don't seem to be able to pick up what he has taught
and my marks just seem to DROP.. DROP.. DROP.
i don't know what went wrong.

its like, i understand the lessons but i do not remember the damn formula by heart.
after that short talk, i feel as if i really let mr ho down and disappoint him.
he seems to have high expectations in me, yes he does huh?
friends say that working is affecting my studies and i should not continue working and stuffs, or else i would not be able to cope with my studies.
but i dont feel that way, perhaps it does affect my studies in some ways.however, that's not the reason for my poor results.



the problem lies on me, MYSELF!



enough of that, making me totally sadded. =(
today's O' chinese oral was like @!#@!$!%$#
the reading aloud was quite easy, except that i was too nervous(i think?) and i
stutteredat some parts. T_T
but i think i sucks at the conversation part lah, it will totally pull my marks down.
the question was "do i often use internet?"
and i began to talk about YOUNG PEOPLE USING INTERNET FREQUENTLY.
out of the question huh. -_-



all the topics we are learning are getting tougher.
about vena cava, about trigonometrical ratios, about precipitation, about pressure, about northen ireland, about hilter. 0_0""








5:05 pm






8 July 2008


yes, i have thought it through.
why should i even be bothered about rumors, which are untrue.
i will be myself, no matter what others say.




BYE, BLOODY IDIOTS! ^_^


9:06 pm






7 July 2008


CAM-WHORING

















shall write about what has happened other time,
as leeying has to chiong her homeworks atthis very last minute. xD









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