happy pills.

DISAPPOINTMENT?!

what is affecting my peformance?
mr ho talked to me this morning, when i was heading to the hall for some briefing.
he asked me whether i really understand his lesson.
the thing is that, i do pay attention during his lesson. but i did real badly for my class quiz. 4/10, how bad? T_T

basically, i really do understand what he's teaching lah. the main reason must be lack of practices, and i forgot there was a class quiz on that day. =_=
mr ho said he's very disappointed in me as weaker students are beginning to catch up with his lessons now.
apparently, i don't seem to be able to pick up what he has taught
and my marks just seem to DROP.. DROP.. DROP.
i don't know what went wrong.

its like, i understand the lessons but i do not remember the damn formula by heart.

after that short talk, i feel as if i really let mr ho down and disappoint him.

he seems to have high expectations in me, yes he does huh?
friends say that working is affecting my studies and i should not continue working and stuffs, or else i would not be able to cope with my studies.
but i dont feel that way, perhaps it does affect my studies in some ways.however, that's not the reason for my poor results.

the problem lies on me, MYSELF!

enough of that, making me totally sadded. =(
today's O' chinese oral was like @!#@!$!%$#
the reading aloud was quite easy, except that i was too nervous(i think?) and i stutteredat some parts. T_T
but i think i sucks at the conversation part lah, it will totally pull my marks down.
the question was "do i often use internet?"
and i began to talk about YOUNG PEOPLE USING INTERNET FREQUENTLY.
out of the question huh. -_-

all the topics we are learning are getting tougher.
about vena cava, about trigonometrical ratios, about precipitation, about pressure, about northen ireland, about hilter. 0_0""

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