happy pills.

反正我死了，也没有人会在乎

English - C5
A-Maths - B4
E-Maths - A2
Biology - B3
Combined Sciences - A1
Humanities - C5
Higher Chinese - F9

yeah, believe it or not.
F9, right in my eyes!
not saying a pass, i have never gotten a grade below B3 for my HCl, in all my life.
and all the e2 HCL girls got F9, extremely ridiculous.
something wrong with the marks, definitely.

uber disappointed with a-maths, i aimed for A1 / A2. :(
well, i just have to convince myself that this paper's tough.
work harder next time, leeying!
and please, don't get your head start spinning round and round whenever mr ho's nearby.
hohohoho~

Byebye to fun & laughter.

HELLO! to stress & books.

7:38 pm

i created a livejournal. know why?
i can't find a blogger layout which i really like. =_=
without border, B&W, clean & simple.
can't seem to find one like this. :(
think i'll still be using blogger till i've finished doing my LJ.

the reading pangs' back!
i've not been stepping into the library regularly since secondary one.
the types whose the boy loves the girl and vice versa, then finally they would live happily ever after.
finishing one novel after another, a feeling of achievement. :D

told tom about my resignation the day before.
as expected, he did not approve it.
in fact, i realise many are having the same thought as me.
maybe i'll ask vana after he's back from leave. :)

世界上，最难的事是
当心被狠狠地刺痛时，还得微笑着说没事。

5:04 pm

这一次，就这最后一次，我不会再那么柔弱了。
对不起，加油。

there's something wrong with my phone's SIM card.
don't bother contacting me. :)

falling in love with a semi-imagination

8:08 pm

life ain't so great these few days.
going through questions, taking back results.
improvement in every subject, except for two which i thought i'm strong in.
the poor result for a-maths is expected, since the paper's tough.
however, the result for hcl's big surprise, definitely an unpleasant one.
i never thought i would score that badly for a-maths / hcl. ha ha ha.

something to be happy about,
one week of extended study, instead of two.
and i played captain ball today, lols.

这种感觉，被遗忘的感觉

3:52 pm

不知道为什么，最近心情好糟
明明年中考刚结束，应该轻松些的
但胸口总感到闷闷的，好难受

这几天，反反复复的想着同样的事情
已经快要受不了了
努力让自己不去想太多，可是却控制不了

有时，我在想
如果有一天我突然从这个世界上消失了，
会什么变化吗？

地球依旧会转动
天空一样会放晴
花朵还是会绽放
没差

人，一定要到了失去的时候，才会珍惜吗？

11:06 pm

hello hello, jolene tan.
testing testing 123.

3:26 pm

day out with fellow classmates. :D
caught X-men origins, can't believe it.
i'm not the type who goes after x-men, admire spiderman or long for superman.
surprisingly, this movie's great!

got a new lover, the wolverine.
he's like so MAN, the type who would kill everyone who bullys you. hahhaha.
will get over him soon. :P

as usual, no photos with them. -_-

guys nowadays are strange, really.

it's either they stare at you as if you got something stuck on your teeth, or they ask you ( a stranger ) for your no. out of nowhere.

met two guys ( act beng type, yucks! ) who were shouting behind me, "Victoria de, Victoria de!"
they were looking at me, but i'm wearing a damai p.e shirt.
i'm a girl, Victoria's a boys' school huh?!

today, went to MFL for lunch.
the guy at the h-mee stall was like kept smiling at me, a little too friendly.
and he asked for my name, like who on earth ask for your customer's name?!
i asked him why, and he said he wanna know me.
for godness sake, I DO NOT WANT TO KNOW YOU.

gym tomorrow~

9:01 pm

its the last paper today.

end of mye, but i do not feel any relaxed at all.
instead, i fear what's ahead - 'O' levels.
i guess, after the workshop next week, it will be checking of papers and completing of syllabus.
then, revisions all the way.

next week's timetable's a killer, man.

monday - workshop from 8am - 5pm.
tuesday - workshop, physics and HCL.
the rest are also 3 periods too, other than p.e, i guess.
friday's humans for the whole day.
crazy or what?!

anyway, visited the gym with saeyeoh & xueyi after their LC.
feel so refreshed after exercising, time to lose some fats! :D
tomorrow'll be running around bedok reservoir with my brother in the morning, and probably catching movie with friends later.

i feel like going to gym, again, on sunday.
anybody wanna go with me? :)

p/s: i got my bangs! :P

10:02 pm

i'm sorry, i flunked my a-maths paper.

有时候，真的觉得好疲倦。
对身旁的人事物，都渐渐地厌倦了。。

3:55 pm

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY~

lols, this card is made by sister. she send it to me via mail and asked me to show mummy after she comes home from work.
kinda cute, huh. :)

by the way, i bought mummy bird nest masks and gave them to her like, last week?
she already used one yesterday. :D
i know i ain't a sensible daughter, always spending money on unnecessary stuffs.
i'll try to be more sensible. next time bring you to pedicure / spa, kay! :)

back to study. :(
i only studied 3 biology chapters within these few days! ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~

p/s: if its only me who's putting in efforts, then everything's useless..

1:54 pm

when you think you're the most stressed person in this world..

there's always someone who's worse than you! *evil laughs*
i have mid-year, loads of revisions to be done, prelim, and most probably night study in term 3, before the arrival of 'O'.

sounds stressed?

norman kor has mock mid-year, mid-year, mock prelim, prelim, night study, remedials before 'O'!
hahahahaaahs, so much worse than me, and this makes me feel better. ;P

speaking of norman kor, he just "reminded" me that we've known each other for approximately 5 years!
thats fast, i was like in primary 6 when i first met him.
since the year of PSLE till now, when i was going to take my 'O' levels soon.
time really pass in a blink of eye, huh. :)

okay, this post is kinda random, so i shall write randomly. :)

i saw a guy with long legs, arms and body. is that down's syndrome?
my cousin's friend thought i'm my brother's girlfriend. do i look that young, hehs.
studied with shuting yesterday, and we ended up linking gene mutations to other stuffs.
i'm going to ignore my guitar for a moment. :(
feel like gym-ing~
a-maths' a killer & biology's a goner!
guys're weird creatures.
bye bye.

4:33 pm

ProGress

E-Maths P.2 was relatively easy, except that i already got two careless mistakes.
Hopefully, i can get my A. x_x

Science Practicals were... first time i felt that i do not know what i'm doing, i went through the steps, yet i did not obtain the expected results. seriously, this made me panicked like hell. -_-

Chemistry Paper today was quite easy too. most of the questions were easy, but i seems to be unable to write the explanations down in chemistry's terms. and i did not expect myself to complete the paper at only 10 minutes before the paper ends.

Yesterday went to study with cherlyn.h, cherlyn.c, chieh and jenny in bedok interchange's MAC.
it was productive i would say. we crapped and joked around while having our lunch there. and i unintentionally did many actions which made all of them laugh like what. then, it was serious studying all the way till 5 plus in the evening. :)

Wanted to study in the school for SS with cherlyn.c & jenny today. but i don't know why, nothing seems to go into my mind within that 2 hour plus. i decided that its useless to keep reading and reading but do not absorb anything. so, i came home. :D

now, i'm going to calm myself down. flip through the SS tbs slowly ( while eating my fav. cadbury chocolate to give me energy!) and absorb every single thing into my mind. and hopefully, not forgetting them the next morning.

I PRAY HARD THAT THE CHAPTERS I STUDIED FOR WILL COME OUT, NOT THE OTHER WAY ROUND, LIKE HISTORY.E! :X

12:57 pm

一切都得靠自己。
嗯，丽莹加油！：）

9:37 pm

星期一就是华文考试了，所以想试着用华语来写这篇文章。
写什么好呢？

有人告诉我，爱情像空气一样。
你愈想抓住它，愈会扑空。
就像一只小狗，你越想把它抱住，他越想从你的怀中挣脱。

当你看着你爱的人开心地笑着，但那笑容不是属于你的。
听着旁人说着他们有多相配，也只能用微笑带过。
即使心有多痛，也要祝福他们的吧！

放弃一个很爱你的人并不痛苦，爱上一个不爱你的人，那才是痛苦。
不要留念过去，珍惜现在所拥有的一切。
放手吧！

9:07 pm

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