happy pills.

wohoo, my computer's repaired, like finally.
had a tiring day, but enjoyable. :)
i got so many photos to post here but shall do that the next time. :)

class BBQ today.
met fellow classmates in the morning and off we went to get BBQ stuffs in parkway.
i realised we tend to form 2 lines while walking, sooo cute! :D

wenkai got smashed with choco.cake in the face, sucha poor belated birthday boy! ;P
later part, we started dropping people into the sea, hahhas!
weixiong & yujing helped me push louis into the water, and i got drenched too. ._.

jogged a little with chieh today, chatting wise, alot!
we can like talk non-stop for 265432 years. :)
i really love her, wahas!

chieh & i changed our dirty clothes by the sea, covered by only 2 huge leaves and a mat.
this is like more exciting than riding on a roller coaster, hahahas.
i was so panicky while changing, like who won't?! ._.

chieh got parents to fetch.
cherlynh got boyfriend to fetch.
then jenny, cherlync & i had to take cab to bedok interchange and take bus home.
how sad. :(
hahhahaaa.

i realise that i may not understand you as much as i thought i was.
you asked me why can't i trust you & your feelings.
but try putting yourself in my shoes.
what would you think if the girl you likes, goes out with her ex-boyfriend, who was also her first love almost daily, alone.
no matter how much you tries to convince youself that they're just normal friends, it won't work.

the problem does not lie in people saying things or those "rumours".
nobody's at fault nor to be blamed.
even if you're really together, i've have absolutely no right to say anything.
because i'm the one who did not treaure what i had.
seriously, i wouldn't have give a damn whoever you're with, if i did not feel anything towards you.
i would rather feel nothing, but i could not.

i'm tired, tired with all these games.
trying to convince myself that friends, both of you are merely close friends.
trying to shut my ears from all the rumours, telling myself that i, TRUST YOU.
sometimes i wish i could just grab your arms and not let go, but there seems to be something stopping me..

REPLIES TO TAGS:

SAEYEOH: GYM on this saturday! :D

VERONICA: hello! :)

SHIHUI: who says human must know how to swim & play badminton, who say? tell me tell me tell me, xun kia! ;P and i think i've finally drawn a fullstop to "that", how about you huh, in july? :)

CHIEH: do you have to be that violent even if your best friend's dead? hmm, actuallly i would do the same thing too, hahaas! :D

SHUTING: hoho, i'm turning 17 soon, okays still long. KTV on this friday, it has been long since we4 meet up together! :P i'll send their songs to you, if you reminds me. :)

NASIR: you freaks, made us waited for so long. next time i shall just go and knock on your door!! ;P

GUEST: i know you're hm. don't worry, i'm really alright and i mean it. i do not blame anyone la. thank you, superman and i love you! :*

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